OK it is Tuesday, Sept. 2nd. I am at work right now. Yesterday was the last time I spoke to my soon-to-be-x. I will report on that later.
But as far as walking the walk, yes, I know I've been bad. But this is a new day. I have not spoken to him since yesterday afternoon. I know he does not love me anymore. His actions speak just as loud as his words. His talk and actions are in unison with each other, whereas mine are not. I get sick every time I think about him. And yesterday was a bad day for me. I've put everything aside, and now as long as I don't hear from him again, I feel confident that I can do the same.
Thanks for all your help everyone. It's going to be a long haul from here, and I realize now, that I must let him go. If and when he does call me, I won't answer. If and when he calls and leaves a message, I won't return the call. I've come to the conclusion that we are finished, and I can't change that.
Yes, I can only change myself. Taking the high road from this day forward will be my ultimate goal.
