Sorry about not letting you guys know last night. I went to bed early shortly after our convo.
I didn't get as much answered as I wanted to last evening. She seemed to be in avoidance mode of dealing with any real issues. She did tell me that she is not feeling it with her new guy at all. I asked her if that meant she was done with him. Her answer was, "I guess so." She was still really wishy-washy about stuff. She told me at one point that she didn't want me to wait around for her. I told her not to worry, that I wasn't. She said two things in a row, that kind of contradict each other...at least I can't figure out exactly what she was trying to say.
"I love being with you though, but I don't want you to feel like a sex toy." "Well, I didn't mean only enjoy sex with you...I just know that a relationship can't work and I don't want to use you...you mean to much to me."
Does that make sense at all?
Aaron is coming to stay with her this week, today through Friday. She said that Wed is his birthday and she felt obligated to do something for him. Then she told me she was feeling nautious about it. I didn't ask why, but I think it's due to her not wanting to be with him. She threw out that there was no intimacy when she stayed with him over the holiday. I told her I really didn't care to discuss that, but I did ask if he would even do that knowing the circumstances. She said she might (which means yes). She's horrible about answering directly.
I didn't really lay out a whole lot of stipulations, because I didn't think all of them were appropriate at this point. She wasn't too open to, or seemed too interested in us. Well, she did, but she was very back and forth on it. She said a lot of things (like when she said i meant too much to her, etc.) but I didn't get the vibe she was ready for anything. The only thing that I made clear was that I wasn't going to be part of anything until she got rid of him. She did tell me that he is going overboard now saying that he doesn't want to lose her...blah, blah, blah." Yes, she actually said the blah blah blah part.
She said we could talk again this weekend after Aaron is gone. I've decided that I don't want to have anymore discussions about us until after he is gone. I think she's weighing her options at this point, and I don't want it to be like that. Again, cake eating. So if she wants to start R talk and she's not done with him, I'm going to stop it and tell her that I won't even discuss the possibilities if he's still in the picture.
So that's pretty much that.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
