She's moving out!

[firedog31d6]

Well,I did it,

Helped the W move into her new apartment over the weekend. Her brother came down and helped. I spent almost $100 on the task as well. She invited me to eat dinner with her and bro.. and once again for lunch while we were moving. Guess she felt like it would be payment for helping her or something. She was very polite, and we joked around a bit. I tried so hard to keep PMA, but there were times while moving her stuff (mainly my D's stuff) when I would feel myself start to break down and would leave the room. I know she saw the saddness in me... it was just too hard to hide. When her bro and I were finished, we went out to dinner (he and I) and went driving through downtown together. He wanted to know what my side of the story was and I started crying and told him that I hope he never has to endure anything like this in his life. We are very close and he tells me that I am the brother he never had and will always be his bro.

My wife cleaned house. I was left with a few pieces of furniture and about 3 hanging items on the wall. My brand new house looks almost vacant now! It kills me to come home and look at what has happened to the last 14 years of my life. How could she just write it off so easily?

Yesterday, she calls me at work to tell me that our D has opened her B-day presents. Those presents were supposed to be from both of us.. I got a little upset and said "I'm glad I got to see her open them". She said "sorry" and gave the phone to Emily to speak to me.

I am very worried that now I am not only going to loose my wife, but also my rights as a parent. I have been doing some reading on -co-parenting and it appears that the courts here in Texas are in favor of a "stable environment", meaning that they don't want kids to have to be shuttled back and forth between the parents too often. We have managed to keep it 50/50 to this point and my wife has agreed to stay in the school district.. none of this is in writing, and I am worried that the judge won't go for the arrangement or something. I am terrified at the thought of being reduced to a "visitor" or "sunday dad". I want to be a parent, and have been a damn good one for 7 years. I have spent more quality time with her than my wife, who BTW was a stay at home for the first 5 years. Does anybody have anything positive, or hopeful to say to my sitch? I am scared and I feel that my whole life has been yanked out from under me and I have no control over it. I am very lonely and it is all I can do now to put one foot in front of the other.