I think what it is for me is that I feel like I have nothing to write about or nothing to focus on. No reason at the moment (if you see what I mean). Before (pre DBing) it was about trying to meet up so we could spend time together and trying to sort him out. After the second bomb it was discovering this place and working on DBing techniques and trying to sort me out. Then he made contact about the house and it was getting myself strong to face that and then the finances. I have no 'project' at the moment which makes me feel flat and hopeless.
It has been no more than a week in the past I think of no contact. I feel like he has no reason to reach out at the moment. Other than me emailing him in a few days to tell him that my money has gone into the account (as for the first time he extended that courtesy to me so I want to reciprocate) there is nothing else I can see to do that won't be pursuing. Maybe I have to accept doing nothing for the moment... it is just a bummer as I got a taste of what I wish it could be last Wednesday.
You know I might do some brain-storming when I get home, that is a good idea - only 2 1/2 hours left to go till 5pm.
