I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling down. The only thing that tends to work for me when I'm feeling this way, and this might just be me, is writing in my journal. I find this tends to give me real clarity for those moments, and sometimes helps me to come up with things that I should/shouldn't be doing. It's like I am getting answers, and some may call it divine, or just your subconscious or what have you, but it saves me when I'm incredibly low. Problem is you can't really do it at work...
Great that you have a holiday booked. The end of October is a long way away yet, so things might look different with your H by then, right? Maybe you will go away with something more positive.
So it's been just under a week since you had contact with your H? What is the most time that has gone between periods of contact for you 2? Does he always reach out if you go dim?
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
