New month, new strategy

[istherehope]

OK,

No updates this morning. Feeling a bit panicky today, so trying to get this out here vs. sending H an email. I didn't hear from him at all yesterday, but I know he was traveling for work. Today he has business meetings, but I really hope he'll at least check in and tell me he got to South Africa safe and sound. I'm really trying to take this a few days at a time now. I can't say 1 day at a time yet as I'm not quite there, but I am trying to think less and less far out. I still haven't heard back from him on whether he wants to push out our joint sessions. I thought he'd be thrilled and jump on this. The lack of response is a bit strange...of course I hope it means that he actually does want to keep having the sessions, but with him I just can't assume anything right now.

We had an unexpected very large debit come out of our bank account, so I don't think I'll be going to Stockholm this weekend like I'd planned, which makes me feel a bit sad about another weekend here in Wroclaw, but I'm going to try and hang on. I think things will start moving more quickly soon with me going to Dublin, but again, this remains to be seen.

OK trying to stay positive. I can make it through today, with or without reassurance from H.

ITH