Hi . . . good talking to you. Thank you for being encouraging and supportive. I never want to give up being patient. I don't want to be taken for granted and give up too much of myself. I like this new 'lovingly distance' thing. My tendancy is to be available, show how much I love, give and give more. My reasoning is always that the more you show that you love, the more 'he' would love in return and appreciate. Distancing is strange and scarey. Now that 'A' is talking to me, I want to pick up the phone, give him this, do that for him, be an open book. Being distant and being a little mysterious is difficult. I talk to myself a lot. AMAZINGLY, good does come from it. He seems to actually look for me. He seems a little bit more open with his life and less mysterious. Hmmmm? He has called me twice since Friday. Thank the Lord that my cellphone was not working. God works in mysterious ways. How difficult it is for me to just let God do his work. Anyhow, I kinda' like this 'off the radar screen' stuff. He doesn't see the bleeping on the screen since I have distanced from 'M', too. Funny? huh? Goal: light and easy, slow and steady, fun, protect my boundaries . . . in a good way. I look forward to sharing happiness and joy with him. Thank you for your advice! Big Hug!
