For the Guy with Kids and a WW 11

[hopeful4her]

Like I told Suga, I think I tried to cleanse the house of my wife, but I know she's still here.

Even though she's not.

I did hang up 2 wedding pictures of us. I was going to put our Marriage Contract up too, but I forgot that I had taken it out of the frame, which she DID take. I'll have to get another frame. I did not put up the man and woman figurine. It's Demdaco or Willow Tree. One of the two. I have gotten a bunch of different ones for my wife through out the years. Mostly mother stuff. I had gotten this one on our anniversary last year, when things were looking so good. Then came July when she lost her job.

Looking through the few wedding pictures.... hurt. It was such a happy day. Married on Valentines Day at a place called the Japanese Tea Gardens in San Antonio. It's a beautiful place near downtown. Cherry blossom trees(I think) and ponds everywhere filled with those huge Japanese gold fish. Just beautiful. Just like her.

I had to call D11 tonight. She was already in bed, but awake. She was tired out from yesterday. We talk a little. D6 has her allergies kicking in so she is taking medicine. Kind of out of it. D11 and I tell each other we miss each other and love each other. We talk about our day a little. I tell her what I did. She says I SHOULD be tired, too. I am. Telling each other goodnight made me cry. I HATE how emotional I get.

I need to man up.

I have to control myself. I keep telling myself I control me.

I just wish they were here with me.

Saturday night, D11 fell asleep in my bed. I let her stay and I went to bed too. Early in the morning, D6 came in and layed next to me on the other side. I'm stuck in the middle of my two girlies.

Nothing better.

I'm going to have a great week. Who's with me?