yep, she is very very lost. and trying to find what is messed up in her thru other people...not gonna happen. just sad so many people, especially the kids, end up in the wake.
stay strong and true to your kids and yourself. you will be okay.
and oh yes to the snooping. oh yes. sometimes I think we do it because we need to info to help us move on. and sometimes I think its straight out masochism. I just know for myself I usually felt worse when I snooped, and better when I avoided it. but there were times when it made me stronger, more confident, and better directed.
honestly (interesting choice of words) the thing I still resent even now is the lack of honesty from h that made snooping a part of my life to begin with. I am not a snooper by nature, I hated it, and it started to change who I was and not for the better. I still wish he had just been upfront and honest about what he was doing...it would have hurt like hell, but like ripping off a bandaid it might have been easier in the long run. or maybe not.
okay, babbling here. take care of you!
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
