I know the feeling. I felt really bad about the whole church deal, but the first week she was back D12 had activities going on and then I was baptized, which I really felt was important, but she felt I should have put it off. Honestly, I think she wanted me to switch over to her church, but I really like mine. I have not gone to church regularly since ... well gosh since I was a teenager. I have intermittently gone over the years, but this is the first time where I really look forward to going. One of my biggest problems is saying no. I really intended to go to her church, just to check it out because she came to mine (before she found hers, though.) I don't suppose anyone is right or wrong, but I feel bad because I didn't go, but at the same time she won't even speak to me now. I did know how she felt, and because of that I feel bad. I am the type of person who realizes that life sometimes doesn't go the way we want. So if someone needs to cancel or reschedule, it usually doesn't bother me. I am realizing that not everyone feels the same way though.
As for my H, it is what it is, and I know we are making progress, but I really wanted to talk to him, and know right now is SO NOT THE TIME. That makes it hard, he is the person I want to share this stuff with, and right now I can't.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
