Well so much for nice. She was still pissed when I got there. She was being pretty mean and spiteful about things. I was pretty much staying away from her and waiting to get a ride back.
When I went and talked to D11 about staying tonight. She said she did not want to because I was trying to control W's life and not letting her get any money for food. I straightened that out pretty quick. D11 was mad that W was being so mean and wanted me to call someone else to give me a ride home.
I then went outside and saw that a fuel line on the car was leaking. My W asked if I had gotten mad at her and put a hole in the lines just to spite her. I went to leave and she started in about money and bills. I said if she wanted to do it we can do it now.
While doing it she was still being a b@tch. How bad it was for her and how good the finances would be for me. She would not have a phone blah blah. I deflected most of it and lost it for a bit. I told her if she wanted to keep acting that way I was leaving. I jumped in the pit for a couple minutes, realized it and jumped back out.
She to try and blame me for different things, one time on both sides of the same issue. She said that I told her she had to sell her car. Wrong, had to set that straight and a couple other things. She then went into crying for awhile. She asked me what she was supposed to do, I told I did not know. She was mad because she could not afford an attorney to file for a D. I did rescue a couple of times but recognized that to and stopped.
She went to the bathroom and when she came back she said she knew that she was out of line because SD16 was defending me. SD16 and I don't have a good relationship right now. She said she was sorry and calmed all the way down. She was pleasant the rest of the time I was with her.
She still has old preconceptions of how I was before and said that she was used to the way I used to be. I threw her off a couple times by some of the things I said. She did tear up a little and asked why did I have to change now. I told her that I had recognized some of my past mistakes and have been working on changing myself for the better. She did tear up a little and asked why did I have to change now.
She then said that she had to go to the store and wanted to know if I needed anything. I had to get a few groceries so we stopped by on the way. She then dropped me off and said goodbye.
I got to work over in the other town tomorrow and do some work on the house. It is hard to get detached when I had to see her. It was a little painful going to the grocery store with her and the girls. Some memories of better times came creeping in.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
