Ready, This just goes to show you that "reality" is only what we think it is. You thought everyone could tell, so went about thinking that everyone knew. That was YOUR reality. The truth was something different, people could not tell. Imagine the energy you were putting out there becasue of this assumption, probably pretty negative. What if you had a shift in thinking. What if you started to think that everything will be ok no matter what. That things between you and your wife will work out for the best (whatever that may be) and you are suppose to be here, at this moment, doing this thing right now. How would that change your thinking and your reality?
This is what I did. I tried to stop focusing on the negatives that I was putting out there and start believing in the positives. By thinking that no matter what, it will be great, I gave myself freedom to let go of things that where holding me back - mainly fear. By believing that I am were I am suppose to be, I took the pressure off of myself to keep doing better, or to have a better R, and I no longer feel like I have failed. It let me keep moving with hope and strength and no longer with preconcieved notions of what my "reality" should be. This is the journey I am suppose to take. Hope this makes since. Just wanted to share how I believe the power of our own thoughts can shape our percieved reality.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008