Still Tryin's 3rd piecing

[S.T. _I Made It!]

oops, it's been so long I don't know what I did to deserve a THANKS Nik!


Well, guess what????? I got to perform my song at church yesterday! With the band too, I was really really nervous, plus the fact that I haven't been sick in a year from drinking my juice, but I've been watching kids and they have ALL gotten sick, so of course I catch somethin...but it's not near as bad as them, but it did cause my voice to be not-so-great, so I know there will be some pitch problems here and there, but I think overall it went good. I will be looking forward to hearing everyones critiques! It was my first "happy" song that I could actually DO in church.

anyways, I'm noticing that H and I are slacking on some things. like ML...we've just been busy and tired, especially with me doing this school care thing now. I can't believe he's been getting up at 6:30am every morning for the last 12 years!

We do have a vaca coming up in a few weeks to Pitts. we'll be watching a penn state AND a steeler game. luckily I love football, or else I'd probably HATE our trip! I've never been to a college game, or at least one that mattered, and I've never been to an actually IN season NFL game, so it should be pretty cool.

One thing though, it seems that he always wants to go on vaca with other people. we've only been on a trip by ourselves twice I think. and this trip we were suppose to have our realy good friends come with us, but something happened and they can't now, so we're both really disappointed, because I'm very close to the wife, and he's been BF with the H since he was in highschool (although they don't talk much) But, it just makes me nervous about how the trip will go because we don't have much in common and I don't want him to be bored with me. I know I need to not focus on these things and just focus on having a good time. It's really hard to do that sometimes when a third of your life has been focused on children and putting yourself last. It's almost as if I don't know what I enjoy anymore, or I don't know HOW to have fun.

I know that this is partly due to me not fully GALing during the sitch. I did GAL, but I was mostly by myself. I have though been more involvd with church since I play in the band now, so that has been good.

Another thing that I would like different is for us to do more things as a family. Life becomes so hectic, that we're never together. I think we've played a board game twice as a family. That seems really pathetic. We have watched a movie here and there, and really it seems like the only thing we do as a family is watch tv. I'm going to have to think of how to change that. My H spent over $100 bucks on a bike, and we've never gone out riding as a family.

HMMMMM.... I know, I need to stop looking at what's wrong and start thinking of solutions! But I'm too LAZY!!! hahaha... I want HIM to do it!