I'm getting the feeling that the two of you are coming at this from different directions, which isn't too surprising! It seems to me that you are expecting, or at least hoping, for too much too fast, and you get really slammed when you don't get it. This is going to take a long time, if it is going to work. try to control your expectation, and look for the positives to keep your spirits up. He still wants to be friends, I think that is a really good thing. Be willing to take it slow, and try not to put pressure on him, or yourself, for that matter!
