It does really suck and hurt right now. Just have to get through it. I do hate the fact that D11 was there and she went off like that. She pretty much broke down after SD16 came in and told her how much she had hurt D11.
I did not get to the part about having the OM over to the house. That should be another episode. Some other day, I don't think I have the strength to do it at the moment. Soon though.
She did pretty much leave me hanging in the wind the other day. So much for missing me blah blah blah. I agree to stay out of bed with her or anything else for that matter.
For me, there is no temptation to rescue her or pursue her any more. I just feel like letting go and moving on. I really don't need or deserve this kind of bs from her or anyone else. I did detach really well awhile back, but I allowed myself to get back into it. I need to refocus back on myself and D11.
It is painful to let go, maybe she will come back maybe she won't. If she ever does come around it may be to late anyway. So I may as well plan my future without her in it.
Why does it seem that I am just giving up. Not a good feeling because it is not the kind of person I am. I really don't like this self-pity crap either.
I don't get why she feels so lonely. I thought that was what the OM did was fill in the gaps that were missing. Not my problem so I guess it should not matter.
I have read in your posts about a script that this goes down. Still reading through the whole mess you were in. What can I expect next?
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
