God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

I know MWG. I went there to prove myself right or wrong. I thought he was gone with OW. I am doing well now at letting him alone until it comes to OW. I can't stand the thought of them together. BUT even though it infuriates me. And I really thought they were together. I WAS going home and was not going to act on that. Not this time, not anymore. I guess I just had to know.

Asking him about his things...I guess like I said earlier I am so tired of the threats. I am getting to the point that if this is what he really wants...stop threating me. Get your sh*t, file for the D, and get the hell out of my life. And so he threatened again Fri night for like the 25th time, and I just called him on it. Do I want the D? H*LL no! Do I want him out of my life? H*LL no! I am just tired and losing hope.

I know! I know! I know! This is all so very very hard! I am trying really I am. And I think I am doing better, but I still lose it from time to time.