This is a truly awful time you are going through...
Perhaps it would help to just step back from the R a bit. H is obviously confused and that is why the yoyoing is going on. It will take him time to figure out what he wants. In the mean time, you are suffering badly.
Is there something else you can do to get your mind off this for some time? GAL, act AS IF, smile, be brave and show him what a wonderful person you are!
I don't really know what to say... Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you... ((((TMI)))
