do feel more power within myself with the packed bag.
H is working on a roofing job tomorrow(side job). My kids want to go to the park for a cook out but I don't feel like going because I know I will end up babysitting all day while they want to go do whatever with the friends that they want to come along too.
If H is going to be all day I think I might go boating tomorrow afternoon with my brother and SIL. H can meet the kids when he's done if he wants.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
Boating sounds great!! I think you should definately go. Do what YOU want to do, think of yourself for a change!!
Has he said anything about the bags being there still???
Tomorrow Im going to my mom and dad's for my dad's birthday, but I probably won't leave here until 1 or 2, call me in the morning if you can. Today I did so much around the house I feel like a truck ran me over.
Hang in there my friend, I've been thinking about you
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Just talked to OW she said that if H talked to her about our phone conversation that she would let me know. He did ask her about it. Said he was sorry that she is in the middle.
WTH he's the one that put her there!!!
I did find out that he talked to a good friend of ours that knows about us having trouble yesterday when H called to see how he was doing. Our friend was good to him but, also gave him wholly hell asked him what he was going to do about it.
I think this may be good because #1 He is finally talking to someone. He hasn't said a word to anyone. #2 He's admitting that there is a problem and that it is his.
Friend doesn't want H to know that I know they have talked and I would never betray that trust. I do think that friend could be a big help though. friend is also going to mention C to him.
Funny H talked to friend yesterday and came home last night very clingy. That could also be because he is trying to keep me here so that he can continue the way he has been so im'e not counting on anything.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
I know you will make the right choice and are such a strong woman.
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!
[/quote]It is encouraging that your H is confiding in a friend--something different for him. I'd love to be a fly on the wall to hear what he's saying.[quote]
CL,
I do have a fly on the wall it is our friend. He will tell me what H is saying if he thinks it will help me. I will never disclose to H about it. Friend wants to help both of us.
H is to the point of almost suffocating me with affection especially after talking to friend on Sunday. Heck last night I could not get out of bed to go to the bathroom without him asking me what I was doing where I was going. Held me all night(not good for hot flashes but loved being held) He is giving hugs and kisses all the time and just plain holding me.
I am afraid that this still is the vicious circle that we have been in for a while now but, who knows.
Bag still packed. H has not mentioned it at all.
JAK
Last edited by jak58; 09/02/0801:47 PM.
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
