Remember the part where it states that God is working to teach him something? You cannot do it, it is not your job, but God's. You have to let God do his work. I don't just pray for H, I pray for God to give me the strength to know what I am doing is right.
My pastor said a few weeks ago, we are always surrounded by noise, radio, tv, traffic, doesn't matter. If you really want to hear the voice of God, sit in silence and pray. What message you get in your head is what He wants you to do.
I did this. One day, a few weeks ago, I was getting ready to send an infamous, weepy email to my H. Instead of sending it, I left my office, went to my car, and asked God what He wanted me to do. The words came to my head. "Stop. Just wait." I did. Deleted the email, and went back to work.
Twenty minutes later my H called. It wasn't anything major, but I thank God every day I did not send that email. The differences in the progress we have made has been very small since then, but we are progressing.
I have to run my D12 to my XH's really quick, will be back in 20. In the meantime, try that. Shut everything off. Relax. Breath deep. Pray, meditate, and don't concentrate, but listen.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
