Everybody has moments like that. I felt like that last week with the storm, just kind of moments of anger and hate toward H. I don't like feeling like that so I do pray & try to look at things positively. Like when my H is being a horrible dad, I'll think "but this is bonding the kids and I that much closer" or he is not helping me out and I have to do most stuff alone now that "it's making me a stronger more independent person", and when he's being an angry person it makes me think "life will be better soon b/c it would be hard to find a worse H" and stuff like that.
I also do think that there is a plan for your life, and things work out for the best, and that whatever happens will be good. Like this whole experience has made us stronger, healthier people. And I also feel sorrow sometimes for H. He he is losing out on somebody who would always be there for him in sickness and health, etc and someone who loves him unconditionally. Your W is doing the same thing; turning her back on someone who is a loving, dependable honest person.
I've been feeling lately like I wish this would all be over asap. But I'm thinking it helps to have time to adjust and get stronger so that part is probably good. (((((NC)))))
