I did read the 10 steps and I will have to keep reading them for them to sink in.
I'm not really doing much to get a life...it sounds pathetic but I just don't feel like being around anyone. I've lost over 30 pounds since he left in June does that qualify as doing something for myself?
I know the old R is dead and I don't want that R back, but I can't stop thinking about how he won't give us a chance for a new one....it would kill me if he found some girl to "put on a pedestal" and moved on forever......
I think my problem is him not wanting the old R is ok...it's the not wanting ME that kills
