For the Guy with Kids and a WW 11

[hopeful4her]

wdid,

GBG has no idea what I do, where I go and who I'm with. She tries to talk or chit chat, but I try to hold back. On the phone, she'll say something, I'll respond with a short answer and then just wait. Pause. She expects me to continue the convo somehow, but I don't. I have NOT told her that I am sad but ok. She might think it. I don't show her love, I don't show her anger, I don't show her sadness, or do I really show her happiness. I don't really show her anything but me wanting to leave her apartment, for the most part. The little blurb about what I'm going to do with the kids today was the most I've told her about my plans in a while.

After I sent the response, I figured I should have left off the little comment about the email she forwarded. I did like the email, though.

I liked it, so I told her. If I didn't say anything, I think THAT would be walking on eggshells. I don't feel like I walk on eggshells because I'm not supposed to really talk to her about much anyway.

Isn't she supposed to believe that I HAVE moved on without her? That I'm not moping around thinking about her? I AM nice when talking to her, but just not talky talky. Not TRYING to make it nice for her. Isn't she supposed to know somehow that I am getting out. She thought I was boring. She is supposed to know that I am someone she might like to hang out with after all. Again.

I had fun with kat last night.

I had a blast with my friends last night too. Do I find them attractive. Yeah. There was no hanky panky. And they make/made me feel really good about myself. My self confidence soars. I AM finding that cool guy.

Like I said before, I feel myself in control more. Not going to let anyone have some kind of control over me, anymore.

I control myself.

Your still my Guardian angel, dub. I hear you, when you think I don't. When I'm 'there', I do think of you