I think we were posting to each other at the same time! Thank you for that great compliment, it really means a lot that you said that,
I will really think about what you said, I am confident in other areas of my life but this whole h thing really knocked it out of me for a while. I do have a kind of stubborn determination (i.e. eating raw steak and egg instead of admitting ignorance which my Dad pointed out to me tonight after he'd finished gagging/ laughing at me) and I sometimes wonder if it is that which makes me carry on with this or if it is love for my h - I think it is probably a combination of the two.
LOL, minging is school playground speak for something really unpleasant. Another variation is 'that mings'