The Door That Never Closes!

[Treese]

HI everyone....well...it hit me yesterday....REALITY!!!

H goes for his genetic testing on Wednesday....I can't seem to get my focus off that....would love to hear it's not his but I am not very hopeful about that one....I am gathering the money to file to protect me and my children....I DO NOT want this as a joint debt.....my home will be paid for in 6 years and I don't want them to be able to get it...

H has been very kind this past week...I'm sure because of what is coming and I'm sure he thinks I'll be kinder in the D if he's nice to me...NOT!!!It's not that I want to be mean I just want to live the life I've lived for the past 30 years....it's only fair....he has been taking son to practice and is picking him up for me out of town today....doing more for me.....and I am positive it is all because of what's coming down....he knows it's going to hurt all over again when the results come back and it is going to change our life forever!....he still believes that the judge will make sure he has money to live....all about him again....well if we need both incomes to survive now how in the heck does he think he's going to get his own place and now have another kid to support.....and if they make him pay back support he'll be living with someone the rest of his life....

I have a question for anyone who knows about legal stuff....can't I sue her for emotional distress....she slept with my H and had a kid....now my children and I are distressed...I'm on meds...D16 may need to get on them....talk to someone....something....we are all numb....H has even been calling the girls or texting them every day since the letter came...my D21 wanted to know what was going on...so I told her...she said, "that explains why dad keeps texting me"...of course the girls don't respond....very sad...the whole situation...I am still trying to figure out how I get out of bed in the morning....Is this going to hit me really hard one day and shut me down? I'm scared.....OF EVERYTHING!! I can't afford to live on my income...and why should I have to get a new job...I love the one I have.....and I'm with my kids when they are out of school....and all summer with them....

Well....that's where I am at this point...I guess no further than I was the other day....just panicing trying to get money together to go retain my lawyer....

Treese