I've been around I just haven't had much to post. Things are still going well. My hubby is coming to visit me tomorrow sometime in the afternoon just to hang out and have fun. We have our next session for counseling on Wednesday in the afternoon so we will probably spend that whole day together as well. We have been texting as usual and while we are not talking about anything super serious we are talking regularly which is always nice. I have been busy doing my own thing the past couple of days and have just been leaving him alone. I know that if I initiate a conversation he will reply but I am just letting it go right now because the last thing I want is to mess up any of the progress we have made by being clingy. And besides that I really haven't felt the need to be in constant communication, probably detachment, because I know that if I wait a coupld of days I will usually end up being with him in person and that is so much better!
I'm still working on my list for counseling and will probably post it on Monday to get some feedback before I present it on Wednesday. I hope he is working on his list. I'm kind of nervous about the session because it seems like it will be when we officially decide to work things our or cut our losses and walk away. I don't really see the latter happening but it is still a possibility at this point. We have to decide whether or not we can give each other what we want and need in order for the relationship to survive.
I guess my only real frustration at this point is that we are still not saying "I love you." I am resolute and will not say it first even when it feels like it is going to burst out of me. I just don't know what the hold up is on his part. Perhaps I am just being impatient but I don't understand why he hasn't said it seeing as how things are going so well for us right now. I have been wanting to initiate a R talk the past few days. I just am really scared of messing things up!
How do I know when it is okay to bring some of these things up? I know I said I was going to have a R talk the other day after our session but we didn't really talk about it other than just a few little things about our homework assignment. Hmmm.
Well thanks for checking in on me ITH. I've been reading along as you post and have not had much to add so that is why I have been quiet. I'll post later.
