n, Treasure the time you are spending w/your father and learn all that he has to share, no matter how small or large the wisdom is...listen, for it will help you in the years to come. Your posting reminded me so much of what my father and I use to do after my xh left as well.
It sounds like you and your father have "mastered" the vinyl siding and it will definitely help w/keeping wood rot at bay. But, if your father tires easier these days, encourage him to take breaks along the way.
N, you are learning so many new things and just think, your h doesn't have a clue about all of this. You have so much to be proud of. Yes, you do miss your h, but you wouldn't want him the way he is right now. In years to come, he may mellow out and return the person you once knew. I do hope that he does and comes to realize what a jewel he had for a wife.
Please take care of yourself. Do not try to over do it this weekend and that goes for your parents as well.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
