Vent away, that's what we are here for. I hope things improve soon for you. You are always so strong,but remember we are all human and all have our breaking points.
Hugs, Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Things are status quo.. his eye is still swollen but getting better I guess.. He's been working so Im sure that's delaying the process. He will be off this wkend to rest until probably wed. so that's great.
He said he really misses the kids.. no word on me Ouch! that hurt a bit. I'll assume he misses me or just the hanky panky I guess that's my problem with him, He has not emotion for me except for that. Whatever.
Anyways, S5 slept at a friend house last night, calls me up at 930 and is missing me I told him I would pick him up, but he said he would try and stay, and he did.
It was a nice break for me just to have S2, no fighting or yelling, so that was nice. but the retard I am, I still missed him, I know there is something wrong with me.
Sat. is cleaning day for us. Hopefully I will have the energy for it. The stress from the last wk is catching up to me, Im so exhausted. Sunday we will rest, and Monday i'll got to my parents for a barbecue for my dad's bday. Will be nice.
Hope everyone has a nice wkend.. I will pop up over the wkend.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Hope you have a good weekend, TAL. That will be exciting to take S5 to his first day of school. Remember, the Mommy is not supposed to cry. Hope H's eye is improving. A 3-day weekend is wonderful. I hope he will just rest. Try not to take everything he says personally. I'm sure he doesn't mean it personally. I can't imagine that he gives any thought at all to who he loves on any given day. That doesn't mean he doesn't love, it just means he doesn't think about it.
If your H is anything like mine his LL is Physical touch so if he wants you all the time thats how he loves ya. Guy thing haha.
I'll try to call you later but i have to work. Tried to call when all the crap came down but couldn't get ya. I need to figure out what I need to do before he gets me draged back in for another haul. I am still thinking that this might be the end stage of his MLC.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
...Sara.. I will cry but only when he leaves I won't let him see me.
His eye is so so. He worked today but will have off Sundy-Wed, so that will be a nice long rest for eye.
That's one thing I have a problem with taking things to heart, I can't help it.
JAK.. HOW ARE YOU???? Holy hanna.. I think the break down might be a good sign that he knows your serious???? I hope so!!
Sometimes I think its a guy thing, sometimes I think he's just obsessed. not good. It would be nice if he had some nice words once in a while, but I won't get off on that tangent right now.
Cleaned almost all day and Im still not done. Got tomorrow to finish up...
OH forget to tell you all.. he's actually coming home THIS wkend. He messed up his days and thought the 11th was on a monday.. so he's coming home sooner. So that's good.
Im so tired from cleaning, gotta go relax and figure out what to have for dinner!
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Glad he's coming home sooner. You booked the eye appt with an opthamologist? What is a so-so eye?
As for the first day of school, you should celebrate. He is a big boy going off into the world, and you are getting a little more freedom. Take the little one and go have a nice breakfast somewhere.
Good. I'm glad to hear it is getting better every day. I hope he will regain his sight completely. Have a good day while he's at school. I'm sure he will be having a good day.
Well, my baby is gone off in the big world. I kept it together until he got on the bus. He was so excited to go.
I had him call H this morning, he was still sleeping, but he talked to him for a couple of minutes.
I thought that the jerk would have called me later this morning but no. He called to ask about a tracking number for something and never said a word to me about how it went or anything. Not to mention how I was feeling about it.
Him: What's the matter, you mad because S5 is gone? me: no, Im upset because you haven't even asked me how it went or anything. him: Its just like everybody else gets on the bus, its like how we got on the bus, what is the big deal. Me: Is is a big deal.
Then he starts yelling at me that he was busy this morning blah blah blah, I just hung up.
Im so sick of this crap. He is so out of touch with Real life its not funny. I had 4 people call me this morning to see how everything went. You can't tell me he couldn't have take 2 minutes out of his morning to call me.
IM so mad right now. Im emotional on top of it missing S5, and he once again is making things all so much better!!!!
I don't know why the he$$ I stay with this man.
Im so tired of the yelling and him getting nasty over little things that could have been avoided. He doesnt have a sincere bone in his body unless it has something to do with making him look good.
Im tired of being the only one who cares about our family.
I have to make some decisions, I can't keep going with this for the next 20 years.
Im sick right now.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Division of labor is equality. that's what my political science teacher taught me.
You are the mommy. Your job is raising the children and nurturing them. You take your job very seriously and care about every little detail.
He is the daddy and breadwinner. He takes that job very seriously and is totally devoted to it. He risks his eyesight to show up on the job when he clearly shouldn't. I imagine he risks other things too.
You wouldn't like him if he was in your way trying to mother your children, and you wouldn't like going out and trying to make half the income too.
OK, he's not nurturing. But you more than compensate for his failure in that area. Yeah, he's got an abrasive personality. He can try to mollify it, but bottom line he is a short-tempered, loud guy. That is who you married.
Make your decisions. they are your decisions to make. Can you live with the man you married? Only you can decide that.
Ouch! that hurt a bit. I'll assume he misses me or just the hanky panky 
I guess that's my problem with him, He has not emotion for me except for that. Whatever.
but the retard I am, I still missed him, I know there is something wrong with me.