Hi, I haven't been there, & can't imagine what it would be like. It sounds like you're doing really good, considering. I admire you for fighting for your M & family.
take care
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.