Jesse - I hear everything that you are saying... I am doing as best I can to Get a Life and learn how to have fun on my own.
I guess my issue is me... I guess I don't know how to really have fun on my own. I know how to do things I enjoy - but fun is not really something I have ever learned how to do on my own. Things that most people consider fun - I would be not enjoy doing on my own - always self conscious about being alone. The years before I was with my W - I usually felt like a third wheel.
I am comfortable with myself when I do individual activities like run, shopping, swim, yardwork or housework, reading - so I have spending my time doing those "distracting" things. But things like out to dinner, movies, entertainment, bars - things that many people do with others - I always feel much worse doing alone. Just as when I was together with my W, all of my friends are married with kids, and have their own lifes - then again I feel like a third wheel. I do however, feel much more comfortable doing fun things with my daughter.
So how do I learn to get past my insecurities ?
Me:40 / W:33 / D:3 T:7.5/M:4 D Day: 1/24/08 Legal Separated: 6/12/08 BF who sleeps over: confirmed 11/10/08 Suspect BF pre-dates D Day
