I'm talking some days over the long weekend to not think one iota about the lyin' cheatin' alien flea bitten' H I have the misfortune of being thrown into this nightmare with.
I'm going to go have a lovely time with some friends who care about me.
The rule this weekend (at MY request)...is that his name and anything about him, the parasite or THEM at all, is OFF LIMITS. I've had it up to my eyeballs. I need some fun. Besides, Ali right... unless, until he grows his brain back and gets rid of the parasite, there really is nothing more that I can do right now. Based on the latest stuff. IT's about self protection for me now. I still love him, but I have to accept that I need to COMPLETELY let go.
The piece of info about maybe them breaking up, as much as people mean well... can set me up for a long painful tailspin. I've worked hard to try to keep my head afloat. Plain truth is people want happy endings, it's inherent in humans, so having news like they've broken up or there's that possibility close in the future... makes "them" (family and friends)feel good.. but really does nothing but put me into a bad place. Just because those two might actually break up... doesn't mean he's coming back in my direction. My world is now about me and day to day.
Somewhere in the last 3 days, my heart got a lot harder than I ever thought it ever could get. *shrug* Life sure IS strange.
Abbey
Last edited by Abbey; 08/29/0806:43 PM.
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
