I know the main thing that keeps getting me (and I've talked about this before) is the fact that I no longer feel that certain *intimacy* w/ him knowing that I haven't been the only woman since we got married that he has cared for, shared w/, been intimate w/, etc.
I know. I have to not let my head go there--for my own peace of mind. I also have to bite my tongue sometimes, because for some reason, I want to hear him tell me how much better I am than OW, how lucky he is, how happy he is. I know now though, that he won't ever say those things and that even if he did (only if I asked) I'd have a hard time trusting the words. ACTION is what matters. And he's home and plugged in.
