Energy, I can feel your pain. I understand what it is like to live with a manic-depressive person, as my H deals with it also. He can act like life is great one day and be really happy with everything, and then the next day, he is miserable and down in the dumps and I get the blame placed on me.
I often ask myself the same ?'s about why I put up with it all, when I know I want more out of my life. But for some reason, I always get reminded of our problem free days, before he was diagnosed, and that always makes me want to work on things in our M.
The things I am dealing with with my H right now are not normal for most relationships. Most women in my shoes would be long gone by now. It is a daily struggle to accept the things my H does, and then I cant even tell him how I think or feel with out him ever blowing up at me or running again.
For some reason, I am still DBing. It must be faith. I hope that one day we can have a better relationship, and I continue to work for one.
I can understand your thoughts about your W. I guess it is up to you to decide how much longer you can really put up with it. I know your exhausted, but I always try to urge people to still strive for a healthy M. Only you will know when enough is enough.
Has your W ever moved out before or ask for a legal seperation or Divorce? The reason I am asking is becuase, a lot of people feel differently after their spouse is gone. I knew my heart was broken the day my H first left me, and from that point on I have done every thing possible to get our M back together. I think it is becuase of the reality of what life was like with out him. I am fully physically capable of being alone, but my emotions always went back to him and I felt extremely lonely. TIPPER
