i Jen- just catching up. what i meant was you told on yourself to your coach by saying what your bad patterns were...thats good!
also- i agree.. no more chasing him online even as a joke. i think it was ok to try but you see it didnt really get you results you wanted.
i think he is in love with you deeply- but there has to be a lot of change and he has to face hi won demons. the only thing here is real change, patience and unconditional love - love him like you would a casual friend.
go back to your notes with your coach and read what you wrote...will that help?
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