Jen, the last time we did anything together, she came over for her birthday and mine is in 2 weeks and I imagine that she will rope the kids together and do something for it.
I'm just really really struggling with the stuff from yesterday.
Yes, it could be a good chance to DB or a nice chance to let her get a little taste of being D and for me to have a day to myself.
"In difficult ground, press on; On hemmed-in ground, use subterfuge; In death ground, fight." - Sun Tzu
Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height, Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray. Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
-- Dylan Thomas
The old me has to die that the new me can arise. Yet, the old me knows all my moves and doesn't want to go quietly.
If I knew who I was, I think that I would know what to do. The new me may still choose to DB and try and save this M, but, he will come at things from a different place.
I will take my family to the Taste of Colorado and have a wonderful time. NOT to meet single women, but, to enjoy my family. See, even to write this is to win part of the battle.
Just understand, everything is crumbling down around me and it's not her and not the kids and not my marriage, it's me versus me.
I love you all and I thank you all so much. I wish that I had more to give right now.
