And...once I realized it really was *my* issue to deal with, it's been easier to let go.
Need to remember this; maybe even take some time to figure out what, if anything, is still bothering me so much about anything & figure out how to deal w/ it, get over it, whatever.
I know the main thing that keeps getting me (and I've talked about this before) is the fact that I no longer feel that certain *intimacy* w/ him knowing that I haven't been the only woman since we got married that he has cared for, shared w/, been intimate w/, etc.
I did send him an email this a.m. about the renewing our vows. Not sure what his thoughts are on this anymore.
(thanks for reading my whole book this a.m.)
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
