I've gotten a little snippet of a cry out of my system. Why do I want to reconcile with this woman? I wouldn't put up with her behavior from a new relationship.
I feel like half the time the reason that I want to keep this relationship is because I'm still so co-dependent and there isn't enough ME. Then, when I hold my daughter while she cries about missing her mother, I wonder are my kids doomed to live this pain and hurt too? My duty and my weakness and my hope calls me to stay, while my anger and my loneliness and my pain scream at me to go.
I want to KNOW if W is faithful or not. I know you can't prove a negative, but, there is ample evidence pointing to an unfaithful spouse and why would I want to reconcile with someone with that little integrity?
