Have you thought about maybe taking some meds?

I think they will help you to take the edge off of things, and help you not to react and able to cope.

Yes this is painful, but your Husband is NOT your life.

You need to be strong for the sake of your kids, especially if your Husband is going to be nasty and an issue of custody comes up.

HSS, if you don't get a grip, things are going to get worse.

Stealing t-shirts is pretty borderline....

(((hugs)))

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.