I am sad, and have been thinking about our future with the kids together (not being able to truly share their joys/heartaches throughout their lives, etc). But all in all, I was better than I thought
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This was me is the part that sucks the most! There have been so many times when I should have been able to call the only other person that would care as much as I do about my kids accomplishments. I have gotten so far as to pick up the phone, but then it all comes back to me and I remember that that person is gone. Hopefully it will be somewhat different for you and your husband will want to be a part of their lives, but you're right, the dynamic is forever changed!
