Thinking of biting the bullet

[ACJ]

Thanks BM,
My dad does what he can for all of us but he lives 90 miles away and to D13 is ancient! Neither of her uncles pay any attention to any of my children. My brother lives at the opposite end of the country and BIL never even remembers their birthdays. You were spot on when you said D13 has been hurt the most by all of this. I know she is craving male attention and I'm really worried that it will end up being of the wrong kind.

She isn't seeing an IC. I have asked her time and again (all of them actually) but she in is very resistant. If I force the issue it just might push her over the edge and I don't want that to happen.

As for the seizures I don't remember how many I had but I do remember each and everyone of them. The last one was my first day at high school. How about that for timing. I lost consciousness with all of them except that last one. Ironically I wasn't put on meds until after that one and thankfully they worked. They think in my case it was hormonal and each time I was pregnant I was scared stiff. The menopause will be an equally trying time for me. The fear never leaves you. I do hope you will be fortunate enough to only have the one. Have they given you any reasons why?

I'm being very contemplative about H at the moment. It struck me the other day that he is a 'rescuer'. When we met I had a really bad R with my mother. After one really bad verbal fight I remember begging H to take me away from it all. A week later (12 months after we met on holiday) we got engaged. He rescued me. When FIL died he decided for himself that he had to take over as head of the family. He rescued MIL (and still has her tied very tightly to him). When he met OW she was living in a bad area in a bed sit. They don't live in a palace now but it is far superior to where she was. He rescued her. The only thing he doesn't seem able to do is rescue himself.

That makes me very sad.