I think it is a little of both, but he keeps coming back. He loves you. Now, love yourself.
The journal works wonders. I actually write in it pretty frequently, not that I want to call all the time, but for whenever I have a thought. As a matter of fact, I reminded myself yesterday after seeing H that I need to let go now again, and let him think about it. I don't expect that I will hear from him, and that is okay. I will contact again on Monday so that I can give him ins money, and do it the same way. As a matter of fact, I already have the joke I am going to forward, but I am not going to do it until Monday.
It gives him space and time. H is a bizzy man w/ work, and this way, he really has a chance to think on his down time. Although I still wonder, I know I cross his mind during those moments. He is just sitting and watching right now. He wants to see if I am going to become the clinging vine again. I won't, not again.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
