God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

H changed jobs 2 weeks ago. Insurance ends Aug 31st. At the new job it is a "starting from the ground up new company". Owners are H's old bosses before "old" company sell out. (follow??) Right now there is only 2 owners, H, and 2 part-timers. The don't have insurance. So...they told H they could get him on with one of their personal companies and they would help pay for it. Okay. Well waiting on H to get info from the guy so we can get that going. Today, his answer was..."talked to Mike and he said the info should be coming in the mail. He would call them again tomorrow. That is where it is at.

Okay WCW, I hear what your saying but...by me not being here won't that make him feel that I don't want to be around him? And I don't know how much it will protect me, because I DO enjoy spending time with him, and miss him when I miss him. I am trying to tell myself to be "still". Enjoy the times together, make the most of them and be happy with that. But it just sucks when he leaves, whether he is here 5 min or 5 hrs.

But then again, I am wondering what would happen if I changed the cycle here. If I did as you all say, and stop being so available. I wonder if he WOULD really miss me or start to pursue me. I guess watching the R with him and D17 makes me think not. She avoids him at all costs most of the time. She is fine with him when she has to be but really does avoid him. H doesn't pursue her. He lets her be. Like he's accepted that she doesn't want to spend time or talk to him. They'll talk some when they are put together but neither will seek the other out. Neither will make a point to call the other or keep in touch.