She was named after the character Alicia in the movie Notorious played by Ingrid Bergman (great movie BTW! I'm a huge Alfred Hitchcock fan). Her mom just fell in love with that name when she saw the movie and wanted to give the name to her daughter.
I think you are right that it helped for me to realize what she needed and that someone like me could come back to her and be what she needs again. I think His hand was in this too by answering my prayers for answers to my troubled marriage.
I said our sitches were mirrors of each other's... remember? Hmmm wonder if your H and I have the same name? Now that would be weird.
If you are still reading along. Know that are very worthwhile and in my prayers. I hope you are doing ok... Life does get better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I pray one day you find it, right there inside you , shining bright and feel it. We all love you...
Watch this and smile... K? Nelly Furtado ~ Powerless I used to watch this a lot when I was down. It made me smile thru my tears. Love, Alicia
So yesterday my hubby gets home. He is in great spirits. Shortly there after the crew arrives. I think nothing, negative or positive. I had made him a pitcher of fresh squeezed lemonade for dinner. He did have one beer and then he was drinking the lemonade. I even was tempted to say how awesome that was, but I didn't. ( I am not his Mommy ~ ) He also started to talk to me about his day. He mentioned that the homeowner was drinking all day. I said "Oh, really ? Hmmm? " and he then says " He is an alcoholic honey !!!!!!!!" With a sort of disgusted tone.... I then asked " So when you drink all day that means you are an alcoholic? " {Playing dumb } And he replies " Yes, that is what I am too ~ when I drink all day!." " I am an alcoholic." I was speechless. He has never said that about himself before. He did well yesterday and then when we went to bed he was calm and at peace. I dunno where he is headed. I don't think he will be sober anytime soon, but he is heading for brighter days. Hopefully he will see that him and alcohol don't mix. Sort of like me and Cheesecake. I could eat the whole thing. With bold coffee and heavy cream and a tiny bit of sugar. I feel optimistic today. I feel like he is giving me a break from chaos. Like I can try this for awhile longer. He is showing me effort. I never mentioned that I went to Al anon. He thinks they are Weight Watchers meetings..... I did go last week too, but I follow online mostly. I don't like keeping it from him but he doesn't need to know that. It would be just another thing that I do to prove I am 'better' than him. In his mind. I am doing well losing.... but I can see where I sabotage myself. { What am I afraid of?} { haven't figured that out yet } I eat relatively healthy.. its my portions that keep me chubby. I want to be smaller and leaner just for me. So I will keep trying to be the best me and also to remember that I am doing this not only to look better but to feel better too. I do really well all day. And most nites... but then sometimes the nighttime munchies get me ... ugh~
It is good that he admitted the "I'm an alcoholic when I drink all day". It means he does think about it and he knows how it affects you and the kids. You are right that it may be a while before he really does do something about it but he IS moving in the right direction now. This is huge step for him!
My sister told me that the hardest thing that she ever did was to make that first admission that she is an alcoholic. It was a huge first step for her. It's like finally opening the door and once the door is open then they can start to do something about it. For her it was easier to go to NA (Narcotics Anonymous) meetings than to go to AA. It was easy for her to admit addiction... but alcohol? OMG if I'm an alcoholic I'm just like my father... like I said, very big step this was for her.
I believe the prayers for your husband are being answered, the light in him will shine brightly soon I just know it will.
Oh and don't forget to follow my half-a-honey-bun diet... It does really work.
Oh and don't forget to follow my half-a-honey-bun diet... It does really work.
LOL~ I wish it would for me, I will {try to } add it to my weight watchers theme. This is my problem if I only eat the half of the honey bun. The other half calls my name .... Alicia come and eat me.... ROTFLMAO~
I just love your optimism lately, it is contagious. Still feeling lazy... Hubby just came to get the kids and I and took us for Sushi. I ate well and didnt eat anything brown { fried or not good for you}
Now that would be weird.
{ MOVING }
Thanks for being my friend too Ali.