:/Hello everyone, Although I never got to just pull out of the driveway when H was pulling in, I did do a lot of DBing. I must say that I felt pretty confident about it, but then last night as I went to bed, I mulled over the short term of events, and realized that his smile felt negative. If I were to put a label on it, I would have to believe it was a forced smile, one of sarcasm. I am sure he was happy that I left.
I'm pretty sad right now because I had a long talk with a one of my best friends this morning. She feels that I should try to get as much as I can in the divorce because she feels that he is "no good." He does have another woman. I'm sure of it now. I found out on Sunday night, and that is why I backslid. He is still denying it, and that in and of itself makes me very angry, sad and helpless. He does not love me even tho he won't admit that either. He comes home only when he believes I'm not there.
I have to try to detach and move on. I'm extremely hurt. He thinks I do *things* to hurt him. Has he no idea how he is hurting me? He has even been known to say to me, "I'm not hurting you."
I'm focused, but I'm in a lot of pain. Sometimes I just feel like throwing in the towel. My atty has not got back to me yet since the correspondence yesterday. H seemed very content yesterday and secure that he will get what he wants out of the D, and so I assume he's heard from his atty. about my response, even though he did not mention a word of it yesterday. I truly believe he's playing me. But worse, I'm SURE she is playing him and he's too dumb to realize it.
