Hey Woog - Did that Thunder, Lightning and Rain package I sent make it to you yet? I need you to take it from me as it is preventing me from building the kids a new swingset. What happened to my summer weather?
I was reading some short stories and one of them was about a less fortunate family with two small children and how a small group of adults pulled together to take care of the kids.
For some reason that hit me pretty hard. I felt that despite working so hard and doing everything I can to provide for my kids I have been unable to protect them from their mother and my divorce.
Boy did that take the wind out of my sails.
Before I feel asleep I had a chance to take to a good, good friend of mine who really helped me put it into perspective and actually made me smile (she always makes me smile for some reason). So, in the end I slept fine. But it still surprised me that I would react that way. I guess that stuff has a way of sneaking up on you.
Sorry the story about the family hit you so hard. I do think things have a way of sneaking up on us. I was bawling last night and I am not even sure why, I think it was for so many different things...
Hope you are getting better weather. Saw a guy at the gym yesterday that reminded me of you for some reason. Funny when we have never met...
Tonight my lawyer called. All the agreements are now final. It’s going to her lawyer tomorrow and I expect she will sign the document before the week is over.
My lawyer asked her lawyer what she said about why she wants to divide the assets this way (in my favor) and apparently she told him that she “thinks the world of me and had a wonderful marriage but she wants to be on her own and earn her own way”. He also said that she does have a love interest but that isn’t her motivation.
So, as he is telling me this I literally felt the room spinning and the ground under me give way. It was a flood of emotion. How can the woman that thinks the world of me and had a wonderful marriage want a divorce? She really does love Nick and is telling people that. And then I felt a wash of relief come over me. It’s over. Done and I survived it. Maybe not elegantly, but I survived it.
I do know I can love again. My heart didn’t die when she left. I can be a great father to my children even without her by my side.
Life goes on. Maybe some doors close only so that others may be opened.
Woog, I am sorry it has come to this. You sound healthy. Sad but strong. That's not a surprise for us here. You have been this way all along.
I know you will be fine. I know your will be/are a great dad to your kids. I know your heart will love again and probably if I dare say, more and "better" next time. All of us here learn and improve. The next lady in your life will be one very lucky girl. I bet you will make her feel like a real princess. I hope she will be able to make you feel like a Prince too. Because you deserve that. Always here, keep us posted, Love K
"If i can make it there, I'll make it anywhere..." (sorry, I woke up with this song in my head...) S
