I have not read the books and am concerned about the apology letter to OM. Why would I do that ?
I have taken responsibility for affair and have taken more than my share. After I was caught and we saw H councillor he readily agreed to partial blame of marriage deterioration. Now 4 years on I carry full blame as I allowed infidelity to be a choice. H sees none of the bad marriage before affair - he just sees the A.
I am so lost. What do i do. I have even taken responsibility of marriage breakdown to the family and our kids and friends. Although they do not know all of the A they have heard me defend H and his actions claiming he has his reasons. i say this because they are angry and sad that H chooses seperation.
After my horrible day H turned up at my business where he is security on Thursday night as if nothing had happened. He asked if our girls wanted to go to rugby and dinner with him and his mum on Saturday night and then he tentatively asked if I would like to go. i said thanks but no thanks --- Was this a mistake?
Would not going make it seem like he could question my honesty and integrity without apologising for it once it was found to be unfoundered ? How much more should I take.....
