Where do I go from here? pt. 2

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remember my friend we are suppose to start empowering ourselves!! what are you doing FOR YOU to make YOU stronger even without HIM??!! What are you doing for you - looking into classes? picking up a part time job? what .... see the one thing I can tell you for SURE is that the LESS FINANCIALLY dependent i became on x the better I have become. and let me tell you -- after tonight holy cow!! he is in bigger financial woes than i knew!! he owes taxes, for a boat he had repo'd and he got sued...he is like a good 30K in debt -- plus some to me. He is not sitting pretty..me? i am poor- but i dont have to have him to support me.

Hey, Cagz! How are you today?

I'm sick. D14 had a cold last week and gave it to me. Yuck. Last night my back started really aching. I hope it's just a regular summer cold/virus, and not the flu. I can't afford for this to hang on too long. Ugh.

Kids started back to school, which makes life less stressful in some ways, more stressful in others. After the house is on the market (repairs should hopefully be done in another week or two) I will try to start substitute teaching, and maybe that will lead to a full time job at Christmas or at least for next year. This is a very sought after district to teach in, and you really have to have an "in" like knowing someone or being a well liked sub. to get hired on.

I can totally relate to the crazy money issues. H hasn't lost his job, but his partners are of course disgusted with him, and morale is very low at his office. He keeps making comments about wanting to be out of there, and walking away from it all if he doesn't start bringing in more money. Said he was on "public trial, not just a private trial." I was like, "Huh?" He accused me of costing him patients because I'm talking in public about what he's done. I just laughed and told him that was ridiculous. This is basically a small town, with a small town grapevine. I don't have to say anything to anyone. He works in an office with approximately 20 female nurses, file clerks, billing people, etc. Women talk!!! Especially when it's juicy gossip, and they're pissed at the subject of the gossip! (Both him and the OW, who used to work there.)

H also just found out that he made a mistake in how he valued some shares in an investment, and owes over $10,000 back taxes and penalties for 2006, and will probably owe a similar amount for 2007. Great.

He's got lots of money woes. He is in huge debt (close to $150K, if you include credit cards, L costs, business loans, etc.) and is now saying that he can't afford to pay the temporary support for me, the kids, and the house until it sells. This pisses me off so much, as we had gone through several years of being EXTREMELY tight with money so that we could pay off all our college, med. school, and business start up loans, and now he's dug us in even deeper debt than ever before. I wish the money issues would bring him to his knees. Unfortunately, I think he'll file for bankruptcy and leave me and the kids lying in the dirt before anything will ever bring him to his knees.

What is up with you? How are your kids? Back in school/college?