Thanks for commenting on this thread, each and every one of you. I know I am not alone in my struggle to forgive in this new transition.
I went to my C today, and told her that I feel that this is my next hurdle. She said it will not be easy, but if I want my M to work I have to try and forgive so that I do not hold it against my H forever nor make him feel worse about it. There is a balance in forgiveness. Obviously I will never forget it, but I can learn to forgive, she said. And because I want my marriage saved, that's a good place to start.
Of course, I'm getting ahead of myself. But I do feel my H coming back to me, inch by inch, so I think I am mentally preparing myself.
M 39 H 34 D 6 M almost 8 years T 11 years Bomb: 6/5/08
