On another note, MY SITCH for instance, I had a voicemail from my H a half hour ago, saying he will be coming home after work to "do his laundry." If you are AT ALL FAMILIAR with my thread, you know that I have hardly seen even glimpses of him for nearly three months. You also know that he only comes home when he thinks I am not here. I begged him Sunday night not to come home. I begged him to "go do his laundry somewhere else." I said that I would be home on Monday and Tuesday, and so, he opted to stay away the past two days when he absolutely was planning to come do his laundry. I guess you could say, I tricked him into believing I would not be here today since I was here for the past two days.
This is the only chance I have to DB. Please support me on this. I have taken a shower, used this really expensive exfoliating scrubb, washed my hair, put on a pair of tight jeans and a tight top, and now I am going to put on my *new* makeup. Just 10 minutes ago, I took an anti-axiety pill (something I have not used in weeks).
When he comes, I'll say hello, look into his eyes as deeply as possible and tell him I love you with my eyes. I hope he gets it, but if he doesn't well, as Puppy or Bworl said, "That's his loss." Then, I'm going to leave.
Poet,
My suggestion would be to dress like that, and be ready to go -- purse and car keys in hand -- and ready for him to pull up. When he does, walk out of the house, wave at him and smile FROM A DISTANCE, get into your car, and drive off with a friendly "toot! toot!" of the horn.
I do not think you are ready to engage him, nor do I think it is at all "dark".
