Hey Al, Hey Mishka ((((hugs))))

H is confused- that's for sure!

Mishka- he has expressed some regret:

- In December after going away for the weekend with the aub he told me the following week that he felt guilty and ashamed of the way he was behaving and wouldn't blame me for never wanting to talk to him again.
- In July after my backslide he said he was sorry and never meant to be so mean.
- When we were first S (last September) we'd meet every week for dinner or a drink and he'd always cry when we said goodbye, I guess because of guilt.
- One day last October he was really crying terribly and said he was such a bad person, and that he should be looking after me.

*sigh* if only he'd realise he actually does love me enough (when he dropped the bomb he said he didn't love me enough- not as much as John loves Jane (our two good friends, names changed!)).

Ali- yes, he's definitely getting something from me that he doesn't get from her. I can only assume it's amazingness. LOL! ;\)

Our anniversary is tomorrow. I did suggest a couple of activities to him last week but he looked really shocked and surprised when I did so I didn't mention it again. Today he sent me an e-mail talking mainly about football and work and asking if I want to go for 'dinner and drinks or something' tomorrow night. I wrote back later in the day mainly talking about football and work myself, and saying that tomorrow would be good. I also said I was having the afternoon off so am flexible with times.

No reply this afternoon, so I sent a short text to check my mail got through. He's just replied saying he did get the message and will call me tomorrow morning to arrange something. Fly by night \:\( Still, I shouldn't complain he was probably busy today and it was nice of him to actually ask me out tomorrow. He didn't have to.

How are you guys? Any advice on how to behave tomorrow night (apart from not asking him to drill my possum). It seems a bit odd going out for our wedding anniversary if we're just friends but I want to play it right. And what should I wear? Classy? Or mini-skirt and boots ensemble again? (I'm working in the morning, so nothing too risque obviously!)