Goodbye for Now

[TwinDad]

Well, yesterday afternoon I got caught posting here by my W. Instead of making up a lie I decided to tell the truth about the site.....basically telling her that this site gave me a lot of comfort, in a lot of respects I credit it for helping me find me again. I also expressed how being able to give back felt good and that I was glad that I was able to make a little bit of a difference in a lot of peoples lives.

The fact that it was kept from her was very upsetting to her, and I can appreciate why......secrets have been an issue for us in the past. In many respects this has been a step back for us. It is something I have struggled with as I felt torn between being open about this site and not wanting my real changes to appear disingenuine (i.e. following the guidance here and in the book). I can't say what would be the best approach for anyone one else, but it is clear what was not the best approach for my situation.

I respect my W's feelings and am opting to stop posting. I am truly sorry for hurting her in this way. This may change one day but for now, it is the way it needs to be.

I want to thank this site and the wonderful caring people on it for helping me grow as a person and helping me to restore my self esteem.

I am truly sorry at having to abandon some of the people I have met here, but it has been nice to see many of you improve your situation quite dramitically in such a short time period. I hope you continue to make improvements both in yourself and in your M.

I don't know what my future holds for me or my family, but I continue to have hopes and dreams. I feel I have become a stronger person and now need to stand and face these challenges as they come before me.

Take Care and Best Wishes